I have not written in a long time. Again.
A challenging year
This year that is just ending has held so many challenges that I have not felt like sharing anything. I have felt that it has all been to difficult. Too depressing and too confusing.
But slowly, slowly some new realisations has started to make themselves known. And I am only starting to understand them now.
I am starting to understand what I am feeling and where my grounding is.
Early this year I started feeling that I was losing Goddess. I did not feel Her. I did not connect. It made me scared and confused since She had been my focus and grounding for so many years.
Since before I trained as a Priestess I had felt Her near and honoured and loved Her.
Suddenly She was not there. Well... not like I had known Her.
I started sensing something "bigger". Something different. Something unknown. Something beyond words.
The Source
If I have to call it something I would call it Source. It is beyond feminine and masculine. It is a sensation of the deepest presence. It is whole. It is everything. The void. It is beyond.
It is One. It is. It is me and it is everything.
It is peace.
My fear of losing Goddess has passed. I feel that the Goddess energy led me through a gateway to where I am today.
Not better, not worse than anyone else´s journey. Just my place right now.
At the moment I am not facilitating any workshops at the Goddess Temple because I am not sure how I would do them. What would I share. What would the focus be?
It is not that I can´t do it. I can, and I will hold a workshop at the Nordic Goddess Conference this summer. I can tap into, and connect to, Goddess. I can share. I can facilitate energies in circle to create powerful experiences.
And it is an honour to do so.
I am happy in this new space and I so look forward to where it will bring me.
I keep getting confirmations of how I am feeling, and that it is OK. I am not lost. I am home.
Our own way of being
Today I listened to a recording of Matt Kahn and he said:
"The deepest truth does not require any defence."
And I just thought that was awesome! My "truth" is not truer that anyone else´s. My way of being and my grounding is mine. This where I stand.
I do not believe that I am in any way more or less advanced on my journey that any of you. We are on different, or similar spaces on a spiral that is forever spinning.
I love hearing about other people´s paths and journeys. As long as we know that we can only speak of our own journey and understand that it is not more true or right that someone else´s.
Love is the way.
I look forward to sharing more with you in the new year.
Love and blessings, Elin
